Dream of Leaving

I wish to go to Singapore or KL working as long as not in Malacca.
I hate it again ... I think no other ways can solve this problems unless I disappear for few years. Then maybe time may delete some memories and help to recover the broken mirror. I know the fact is fact, can't reverse back. However, wish the broken mirror may change to new and fresh. I really want to work in Singapore. Maybe after I back, then everything will be fine. Cause of me, make you all so unhappy everyday. Then, you yourself asked me go rent house or leave... I know all these are angry words, but somehow, shouldn't said this kind of words. Since I was back, almost everyday I cried... I don't want the previous Jenny come back. I feel myself doing everything also feel uncomfortable. I really lost myself. I need to find out the real me.
Hope everything may recover on one day. I know it's coming soon.