挣扎的决定

好想改变转换地方。。。
但是又没勇气，带点不舍得。
过着这样的日子大约两年半。
可是我只有想法，却没有行动。
是害怕？ 还是没信心？
那些不是我所追求的，我所要的吗？
为什么一直在为自己找借口？
难道你不会累吗？
几年了还在转牛角尖。。。轮回同样的决定，同样的问题。

如果是我想要的，那就去吧。。。
不要再犹豫了！
不要为了小小的困难而放弃多久以来的梦想。
也许人在另一个角落，会体验不同的东西。
我希望环境能够让自己改变。
趁我还年轻，去大开眼界。。。

金马伦两天一夜 （Dec 2011）

曾经答应过家人要带他们去金马伦。这是我妈一直以来都想去的地方。
终于在上星期实行了。有着他的陪伴，一切都很美好。
很感激他愿意开远路的车，载着和陪伴着我们。













真的很感激。。。
很开心遇到你。。。

Change

Welcome to year 2012 in another 2 weeks time.
Time passing so fast till I can't believe it …
What have I done within this year ?

I do achieve some goal but need to improve in spiritual & relationship.

We all keep growing up & learn from mistake, gain more life experience.

I have a lot of goals & ambitions.
I just don't have confident & sometimes lazy to find ways to achieve it …
What is my real real goal ?
I just know I want to buy … H now … Hopefully next year can get it.

Nowadays I become very quiet & "antisocial" in office, friends gathering & even activities in Buddhist society.
What am I thinking ?
Why I become like this, not like last time can talk & laugh in front of friends, colleague ?
Now I become a listener more than a talker.
Is my character changing to what to I want ?
Sometimes really prefer to hide in bedroom & spend time to own self.

I hope previous "me" will come back ...