时间，请留步

我有什么优点？
我的天分又是什么？
我总感觉我什么都不会？
很多很多东西都还需要学习。。。
看到大家都很好，却看不到自己的好在哪里？

我还在探索和寻求答案。。。
希望更了解自己，知道自己要的是什么？

有时在想学很多东西，但学了又如何？
如果半途而废，不是浪费吗？
岁月不留人。。。
人生有多少十年？
我的两个半十年已经用了。。。

开始担心和觉得时间越来越不够用。。。
很多东西还在等着我去探索，学习和成长！

时间，请留步~
好让美晶来得及找到生命的答案和好好利用美好时光。。。

10th ~ 12th September 心灵提升营心得分享

今年再次出席心灵提升营。
但是今年不再是学员，而是当义工。
很开心和感恩能遇到如旭法师。

终于又了解一些事情了！
这次要感激传光（爸）给我这个机会当主持人。
在准备的过程中，看到自己的不足。
看到我是个要求完美的人，希望把那份稿改到很完美。
然后差一点和同伴意见不合而争吵。
还好我即刻观察到我的心念。。。然后马上转念。

不知为什么当时上台的感觉不害怕也没想太多！
很自然的上台给词和表演手语。而且我敢往观众看。
不担心自己的表现如何。。。 难道这些都是属于放下身段吗？

已经有一年多没上台给词了，我还以为我会害怕。
没想到以前累积的经验，可以派上用场。
很感恩张老师和大家给我学习的机会，让我有今天的成就。
我很满足了，看到自己在成长的路上。
伤心的是身边的朋友都说我没放感情。
我不知为什么总是没感情。。。
我会慢慢改善的，我希望下次有机会，我会说到比较生活化。。。

第二，我被派去宿舍与环保组。
他们既然把我安排在洗厕所。。。哎呀。。。
这可是高难度。。。但他们说洗厕所功德很大。。。
我那时没想什么功德啦！
既然我被派到那，我就帮忙洗。。。

然后要爬一楼到四楼，脱一间一间房的床单。。。
才做了两个小时，就全身疼。。。不简单！
比打羽球还要累！
但是还蛮开心的！

很开心能利用假期的时间做那么有意义的事！
也要感谢我还是单身，还年轻，有机会学习佛法，办活动。。。

我就是要过这样的生活，人生不只是工作，还要做有意义的事！

如今，我体会到现在年轻不好好学佛，难道要等到老了，没体力，没能力了怎么学？
要学习就要趁早。。。学佛学习怎样做人，然后才能成佛！

发菩提心：为利有情，愿成佛！
但愿我认真学习广论。

2010 Birthday Feeling & Wishes

I was so busy during this few weeks ...
Totally no time for blog and myself ...
Finally today I spend some time for myself at home online and writing blog.

Hari Raya I was attending a Buddhist Spiritual Camp at Kulai.
My role is become MC of one event.
I like to talk and wish to stand in the stage give speech ...
However, I am thinking do I have the ability ?
Finally, I get the answer and understand what is my ability Vs Interest.
I accept it and try my best to improve ...

Well, 2 days 1 night camp was over.
Then, this week full of activities (Good friends celebrate Birthday for me)On Tuesday due to Wed & Thurs I must attend the dharma talk with Sifu...
It is a Golden chance for me to meet him in Malacca, Malaysia as he is in China, Taiwan most of the time.

Well... I was so Happy & relax to listen talks although I was very tired...
I asked a lot of Q that regarding my problems & doubt ...

Finally I understand a lot of things in LIFE ...
I am so grateful that I can meet & do Good things during my Birthday Month.

Finally I can feel that Birthday is not a special day for me already as everyday also can be birthday & Happy ...
It is just a normal day for me or maybe go out dinner, buy something for myself.

hehe ... This feeling is not a bad sign but a good sign in the case of know & understand what things is The most Important.

BTW, I feel so touch that This year receive many birthday Presents (5) ... & Facebook almost 100 greetings ... I feel so grateful.
Normally I didn't feel that I have many friends...
Well, it seem like I have more friends now ...

I wish to have more best friends forever & good in relationship ...
I wish to have a Happy Family ...
I wish to change my bad habits ...
I wish to continue learning dharma ...
I wish to be Happy Always ...
I wish to have a good promotion in job functions ...
I wish to find my Real dreams & Objective ...


Thank you very much ...